i guess most of you dont know.

that i cried the first time someone gave me a bouquet of flowers simply because it wasn't the right time and i didnt know what to do.
i simply didn't want a relationship right now.

somehow i know that she was planning something. because seb and ross and naz and sofina were all upstairs trying to make me stay upstairs. and they waited until i was willing to give them time and talk to them.
i know it was mean to make then wait. but i had no idea what i was to do.
and i'm sorry.

the flowers were beautiful. but i think that it was better if i kept away from this relationship.
that i kept away from any relationship right now because i'm not ready for anything.


i'm going to keep the promise with my bestfriend.
not to be in a relationship until i'm 21.

but there is always an exception for mr polka dots!